i'm sorry

fact: advertising influences the way we see things.

why do we try so hard to be liked? whether its friends or boys.
i guess its just our nature
can you really fall for someone so quickly?
agh nothing in my head makes sense right now. im so confused.
okay so here it goes.
its funny how just before i didnt even notice you existed
and now i miss you
and your gorgeous eyes, the way you stared at me
and yes i saw you staring at me... well at least i hope i did.
and now why do you have to friggin leave me. *$!@#$#@^$ asdhgakfhgf
you noe how friggin long it took me to get over him
and now you come along
all i wanted was a break from all of this
omgosh why am i moaning and whining?
no its just that i spent so long getting ready today to find you werent here
i feel as if i just wasted so much time
i feel so stupid
and so...i dont noe the word
but disappointed?
yeh disapointed
it just feels as if a massive whole has been punched in my chest
but if i leave it i know that someday it will go away
hopefully
anyways why do i get my hopes up so high when i noe
you would probably never look twice at me
im pretty sure im not your type
sometimes i just daydream too much

you noe people think they noe me
the quiet azn girl? or whatevers
you can give me labels but i dont really give a crap
coz you dont noe me
you dont noe me at all
not even my best friend noes me
truth is I dont let anyone in
i pretend to friggin smile
and go along with the highschool dramas but truthfully
my heart isnt there
i might say im pissed at something but deep down
its something much more then that
i cant tell anyone all these things coz they wont understand
i just know it
no one will undersatnd
no one will ever understand
so dont go making assumptions
actually you can coz i dont care
right now i just feel really
lonely
isolated
sad
and i feel like crying
not because im overreacting
but because of the feeling inside of me
i just need to let it out
i hate school
i really hate it
its just really hard when you have to deal with all this stuff by yourself
breathe priscilla
just breathe
im sorry
if your reading this please dont think im targeting you or any other people
its just the only way i can let out all my anger
i dont know if it really works though
coz most of it is still inside
anyways i had work experience and..
yeh i dont really feel like talking about it now
ill talk about it later

take care ♥

xx pri

freedom

amazing how fast this term went by. one minute it was the dust storm and now its summer. coz i finished my exams. I had maths c map test, physics test and eng oral today. physics was gay again and i hate it when ppl piss me off by saying tests were soooooo easy coz they werent so easy. okay maybe for you but dont go around rubbing it in other peoples faces. and then i had maths c test and i had a massive headache. i was doing my test and then after i finished it i just slept coz my head hurt and i felt so dizzy. you the feeling when you close your eyes and you feel like your on a rollarcoaster. and then when i opened my eyes it felt like the was tilting on one side and my head was heavy on one side. yeh and then when i was in accounting the sky was white and i saw it as pink. whats wrong with me. yeh i think i was dihydrated coz i didnt have much water. but my other test went well, praise God. well at least i can relax now. i feel no stress now and i can relax but it feels weird. at least i can look forward to the holidays coz i got so much planned. kinda. yeh but rofinis leaving and im gonna miss her. :(. and marlene said shes coming to youth group. hahas it reminded me of the last time she came to my youth group and we got lost. no suprise. but we got to griffith and i forgot where it was and it was dark and you could hear those scary cricket noises and there were random ppl. i saw all these random shadows that turned out to be trees and i stayed close to marlene coz i knew if anything happened to her she could scream and we'd be safe. but eventually we got there. an hour late. but im not usually late. tonight i went to watch the i heart revolution movie. you know the hilsong movie. anyways its really good, i recommend it (Y). well im really really really really really looking forward to Christmas and going to thailand, singapore and malasia.

take care ♥

xx pri
p.s is the past tense for fit, fat?

lalala

yes i had a really bad past two weeks but i got over it and everything turned around and im okay now. yesterday i went to a Presbytery where like Prophets come and prophesise over some ppl. it was really cool. anyways i don't feel like blogging these days. so im gonna leave you guys to stop procrastinating and study study study. i have to study too got 10 assessments left. so lalalala.
bye ♥

xx pri

coz i have to breathe

okay okay, ignore my previous entry. i just had a bad week, but im happy now. i hope. well today was an average day. i had physics first and i had to write my essay which i tried to remember but ended up forgetting half of it. oh well. then assembly which was really boring today. normally it's better but today was a very slow day. then i had maths b. dont you feel really annoyed when your walking with people and they purposely walk with the other person slower or faster than you or in another angle and leave you walking by yourself. yeh well that basically happens all the time after assembly. but im used to it now. i mean its obvious they dont treat you like a real friend so why be their friend at all and when they need you they come and talk to you. i dont know, im not too worried about it but i just get annoyed. and dont you get pissed when you find out like ages later that people say all this crap about you. just shows how fake people are. and people these days are so obsessed with boys. they're either always with them or always talking about them. well im getting sick of getting pissed. so im gonna be happy from now on. see happy :)
g'nite ♥

xx pri